Monday, December 24, 2012

前夕

当你已经变成一个习惯后,
却在这个时候被逼离开,
叫我应该如何释怀。


Sunday, December 23, 2012

The Last Season

Sometimes in life,
You'll make a pit for someone in your mind.
But ultimately the only person in that pit is yourself.
Which means there's only one person who can let you out of the pit.

(Ted, 2012)




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谁的青春没有浅浅的瘀青,
是勉强还是坚持,
没有走到最后,
谁也没办法确认。

还有16天。




Monday, December 17, 2012

17/12/2012

亲爱的,生日快乐。

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Untitled

I'm so worried.
=(

Sunday, November 4, 2012

SPM

原来在巨大的压力面前,
我们是显得多么的渺小。

一开始的关心,
终究会转换成厌倦,
没有任何一个人有义务听你抱怨,
听你伤心,听你诉苦。

没...有...义...务...
所以不要期待。

所以我开始无视自己的脆弱。

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而我开始挣扎,
我知道这一切都回过去,
可是等待的过程让我很难受。
我尝试为自己换下另一个个性,
却始终摆不掉这一个心魔。

请教我如何解脱,
这一个苦境。

救我。

Saturday, October 6, 2012

傻子

今天不开心,想找一个人诉苦,
却顿时觉得并没有什么大不了的。

既然该在意的人,不在意,
那么该伤心的人也应该不伤心才对。
如果每件事可以像解一年级的数学题那么容易,
那么这一切就不会又像乐园,又像坚牢。

当失去了伤心与开心的对比,
人类还会懂得什么叫失落吗?

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就算流血了,却对伤口视而不见,
自以为只是皮外伤,没有什么大不了。
水洗后很痛,才发现伤口是多么的深。
周围满地乱滴的鲜血,总有一些抹不掉。
但总会慢慢脱落吧?

就像脱离开了身体的血,
我是否真的那么可有可无,
真的那么不是一回事。

我怀疑。

Friday, September 21, 2012

Metis 美狄丝

你的标准是什么?
社会的标准是什么?
人与人相处的标准又是什么?

对,是不能把自己心里的一把尺,
来衡量身边的人,事,物。
但是,总不能够一直说
自己有自己一套的处事方式,
就放弃了让自己改善的空间。

没有谁应该为了谁而活,
可是又有多少人,
在这么简单的道理之下犯贱。

不要把自己说得有多伟大,
是自己心甘情愿的决定,
不要埋怨,不要想被可怜。

这样算刻薄吗?
我的标准,你的尺。

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太怕失去,所以选择了放弃,
放弃了尊严,放弃了自我。

乱七八糟的生活,
一日不如一日的生活节奏,
我想我只会一直在逃避,
一直在安慰,一直在撒谎。

如果有一天发现,
用另外一把尺来衡量自己时,
是多么的委屈和可悲,
或许我会消失。

然后在另一个国度,
留下我的脚印。



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I'm feeling like an Astronaut tonight,

If you hear my voice, please come pick me up
Are you out there? Because you're all I've got.


Simple Plan - Astronaut.

Saturday, September 8, 2012

春天的雨水

话说,冬天应该过了,
可是春天还是很冷。

60km/h的狂风
时不时的大雨
肆无忌惮的撒野
就算在风雨中呐喊
也几乎没有人发现。

然而在这个既熟悉又陌生的环境,
大家是视而不见,还是真的看不见。
不想去揭发有可能成为丑闻的事实,
因为有谁从未闭上眼睛,
当作没看见。

Credit to JTMY.






















每天上学都要经过的火车站,
并不是每个夜晚显得的别显眼。

就像人一样,
心情总不能一直都是晴天。

你我都有自己的情绪,
时而安静,时而狂野,时而低落,时而高扬。

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我不想被套上是一个有问题的人的挂牌,
安静不是一种罪。

我没有要让大家难堪,
我有笑容,还有硬挤出来的酒窝。

Credit to NGPC





这种天气,加上一杯热咖啡。
喝时是苦涩,回味时却是满满的余香。

=)

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吴宗宪说,不帅的人比较安全。

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如果质疑是你的关心,
那我宁愿选择沉默。


Saturday, September 1, 2012

超人

你给了我这一幕
难堪的结局
谁要这样超人
连自己也救不起。

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Two assignments due on the same day,
25% in one day, too much to handle.

That's fine. Maybe.

Broke my blackberry again.
Lost all my contacts.

Well, that's fine. I suppose.

Using the old hp, quite laggy
and not functioning like a smartphone.
Downloaded whatsapp but created more problems.

Still ok, I think?

Stay up whole night, need rest,
no one understands.

Hmm, I guess that's ok.

At least I have tried my best,
You can't expect everyone to behave like how you treat the world.

脱下外衣后,身上穿着的并不是超人的制服。
谁会为了我,站在我的立场,
为我想一想。

被忽略得越久的心情,
越容易在夜深人静的时候崩溃,
你同意吗?

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后记:
转个身,想看看电话里有没有一些照片可以post上来,
然后才想起黑莓已经被我送入厂了。
对,是知道电话坏了,
可是这一种习惯还是没有办法那么快戒掉。
这一次,不知道会修,还是会换过新的,
可是事实是里面的资料,还是没了。
好多东西我还来不及backup下来,
原来不是全部东西都留在记忆卡里面。

有些东西就是这样,坏了,
可以修,可以换,可以买过新的,
但有些事情,不能够等到失去后才珍惜。
是一个很简单的道理,
却不见得每个人都会了解。

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心理学上说,人们大多数只对有安全度的人发脾气。
因为在那个安全度之内,你的潜意识知道对方不会离开你。
胡闹是一种依赖。

心理学却忘了说,你的潜意识,
并不是一直都是对的。

2012年
第9个月。

Friday, August 24, 2012

08/24


天雨粟
鬼夜哭
思念漫太古

仓颉,五月天。

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今天终于体验到冰块从天上落下来的感觉,
虽然不是很大块,但还是会痛。
落地的声音,好像随时可以把镜子给撞破。

冬天也应该到一个段落了吧?
很期待太阳能够逗留多几小时的日子。

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今天收到这个postcard.
Thank you. =)

亲情永远比任何东西都来得更可贵。
这一点,我从来没有怀疑。

离家背景那么多年,
连自己是已经接受了这样的生活方式,
还是一直在压抑着自己的感受都会搞不清楚。

请偶尔仔细看看自己,
爱护自己,照顾自己的感受,
不要让自己的善良伤害了自己,好吗?

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走在这条既真实又充满疑问的道路上,
已经渐渐的再看不见自己了。

人总是可以把自己放到小到可怜的位子,
然后认为什么事情都无所谓。
可是接受和压抑,其实是两回事。

而人,久而久之,
好像会忘了自己是有感受的,
很可笑,对吧?

这种感觉,
是不懂为了什么而感慨,
是不确定为了什么而遗憾。

“不需要为了任何人而活,
喜欢就留下,不开心就走。
不用在乎人家的感受,
不必跟自己过不去。”

而说,总是比实际动作来的容易。

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很纳闷的一天,
很想大家都开心,
但偏偏大家都不开心。

嬉皮笑脸久了,
脸上还是会酸酸的,
那是不是代表这根本不是真正的快乐?

我想要一个
没有忧愁,没有伤心,
没有憎恨,没有讽刺
没有恶意,没有争吵的世界。

我不想大家都那么累。

谁有同感?
谁会珍惜这种善良?

到最后,
大家都只会把保护自己挂在嘴边,
伤害着别人,埋没了各自的良心。

你不需要觉得内疚,
你也只是为了保护自己,不是吗?

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"You don't owe her anymore, you've given her everything."
"Not everything, not yet."

-The Kitty Knight Rises-


Monday, August 13, 2012

停战

踏入最后一个学期的第四个星期,
与毕业之间只差八个星期和一个大考。

李宗伟得了银牌,
五月天在澳洲的演唱会圆满结束,
你的生日,他的生日,
忙完了这个活动,
再续那个活动,

还有

慢慢捡起
遍地的碎片。

日复一日,月复一月。

是我真的变了,
还是我只是不再按照你希望的方式去生活?

变得是否和你期待的一样,
那就要看你是否对我重要。





这个大城市,流动着不一样的人,不一样的故事。

阿信说,不管你是来这里打工,还是来这里读书,
还是不知道为什么父母就把你送来了,或是在这里土生土长,
当你觉得伤心,失落,却没有一个人依靠,诉苦的时候,
请记住,有五月天陪着你,让我们一起唱着这首歌....

Lalalala..... Lalalalaaaa..... -憨人-

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Sometimes, you should just listen to what upsets them and
then show them that you can grow and change.

-Leonard Hofstadter-


Sunday, August 12, 2012

8/11

孙女士,
生日快乐。

=)

Sunday, August 5, 2012

救我

我应该比谁都还要清楚。
I'm dying.

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

第七个月

因为太伤得起,
结果就成为了被伤害的对象,
做自己其实并没有那么简单。

所以身为典型的亚洲人,
还是安静一点才会被认为有内涵。

/Asian\

或者可以尝试讲一些大家可以接受,
但是又不想听的一些闷闷的话。

OK!

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我看着天空何时会放晴,地球不曾为谁停一停。
这一个学期,四天都是要早醒,每天都起来和
上班族争位子,还好这里的火车还算准时。



冬天的雨水,让人感觉是上天的哭泣,
我们总是有太多太多说不出的悲与苦,
没有父母在身边的孩子,真的会比较坚强,
只要有三餐温饱,其他什么都无所谓。
正因为是这样,就被冠上了不认真的头衔。

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如果你觉得心情不好,又没有人可以诉苦,
就看一看这张照片吧。

不用客气。=)

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如果你能给的,只是一种施舍,
那我该知足,还是再乞讨。


Friday, July 13, 2012

幼稚

一个城市越是发达,
日与夜的界限越是模糊,
但我们作为一个人
无论在这个“通宵营业”的世界里,
生活了多久也好,
我们还是很自然的追逐清晨的阳光,
作为新一天的开始
你可以说这是我们动物的本能
但我宁愿相信
这种事我们每一个人不须人教
而自自然然懂得的一种生存哲学

在路上,
未必每一个人都懂得向前走
但无论怎么样,
只要阳光再一次在地平线上出现
代表新的一天又来了
我们有权对自己说
不要介意自己以前走得怎么样
一切尝试重新再来
即使结果不可能尽如人意
但至少我们可以为自己
拥有重新起步的这一股勇气而骄傲。

-天与地-

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“都已经21岁了,你可以成熟一点吗?”
“你的认真,根本就不会超过三分钟。”
“你能不能够不要这样幼稚?”

然而你却永远都不知道,
这背后的原因。


Lego 说:
"I throw my hands up in the air sometimes, singing AYYYYOOOO,
I'M A LEGOOOO!"

Man Lei Sei Mei.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Loser

曾经有那么一个试验,
是要证明什么是helplessness,
直接翻译应该是无助吧。

一只小狗,
被放进一个分成两个地区的笼子里,
中间隔着一块板,能够让狗跳去A区或B区。
AB区下方分别放了可以电击小狗的铁棒,
由开关操控着电流。



当地区A电击小狗时,小狗会跳去地区B,
当地区B电击小狗时,小狗会跳去地区A。

之后,AB都同时开着电,
这时小狗不管如何跳还是会被电痛。
后来,小狗不再乱跳,只有接受被电击的痛。
这叫做无助。

就算后来了用回一个时候只有一个地区有电,
小狗也不再跳了。

我觉得,人也是这样,
被伤得太多次后,就会变得麻痹,
或是变得不再那么容易相信。
就好像狼来了的故事一样。

我相信每个人都有不一样的quota,
而在人与人相处时,最好不要用完这个quota.
在彼此把这个quota用完之前,
请好好珍惜这只还是会乱蹦乱跳的小狗。

当然最好的情况是,
彼此都不会互相伤害,
不用互相承受彼此给的痛,
然后无助,无奈,而离开。

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整理了整间家,
连自己房间的地板也抹了,
空间都变得有条有理。
可是太清洁的环境,
反而让我不习惯。
因为不管什么东西不能乱放,
为了保持着辛苦了大半天才换来的结果,
到现在一根头发或纸屑都要往垃圾桶丢。

付出了,努力了,
才会特别想要去保护,去珍惜,
其他事情是不是都这样?

不见得是,
有些事,努力了很久,
也不保证肯定换来一个理想的结果。
这种情况下,真的有点觉得自己是个loser.

很无奈?很不愿意?
被冠上loser,又有谁会愿意?

而世间的事,总不会像整理自己的狗窝那么简单,
而人生,很多时候总是要背上loser这个称号。
不管你愿不愿意,不管你是否接受。



我们都不是笼子里的小狗,
我们可以选择离开,或是留下来补救。

能够受得起巨大的痛楚,可谓英雄,
而英雄,往往总是最孤独的。
-失败的man.-

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或许我们只是
一群习惯被爱的动物,
早就忘了如何去爱。


158 days.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

No Ice

如果你从来没有忙到
连喘一口气的时间也没有,
你永远不会明白就算颓废,
也是一种享受。

我好像又再为颓废找借口了。

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趁这个假期追回没有时间在家里
用超快的电脑和超大的荧幕完成的game.


Done with Batman Arkham Asylum in less than 24 hours.
Very nice game, Arkham City is a must to get.



3 days to complete Assassin Creed 2. A large improvement after
Assassin Creed 1. A very interesting game. Especially the whole
storyline is based on the life of the main character, Ezio and
of course the soundtrack of the game.

Coming up next, replaying Max Payne 1 and 2, Splinter Cell Conviction,
Assassin Creed Brotherhood.

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至于 drama and series,
在追看天与地,心战算有点突破,喜欢多人格的剧情,
Ending有一点靠想象。

在等 The Big Bang Theory, How I met your Mother,
White Collar, Leverage Community 的同时,
可以考虑 Continuum The Listener.

Family Guy 废到有一种不能够接受的地步,
但是有些讽刺的笑话背后都有内涵和一些值得去深思的地方。



(上面这个例外.... )

Running Man 也是很不错,虽然对韩风没有特别喜欢,
但是还是很佩服他们的演员,很好笑。

One Piece Naruto 的连载却还是很慢......

The Amazing Spiderman The Dark Knight Rises
好像快上映了.......
=D

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基本上这两个星期都在做着自己平时没有时间做的事情,
总有一种突然太多自由,变得有点内疚。
最好成绩的可以好看一点,这样我就敢敢last sem拿全部 3rd year units!

AFF 3111 Personal Financial Planning,
'It requires a lot of readings and understandings, I wouldn't recommend it....'
AFF 3751 Derivatives
'This is most probably one of the hardest subjects for finance.....'

其他两个都是Econometrics 3rd year subject. =/
都是在为了如果找不到工作,可以考虑拿CFA paper 1.
所以在大学尽量拿比较有帮助的units,前提是成绩不被拖累....

P.S. Passing rate around 40% and 70 pages of formula sheets for CFA paper 1.

原来毕业过后,日子好像并不会比较好过。

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天上的云一样在飘
你跟我的日子一样还是这么过
你说这是无奈,我说这才是事实
天底下再严重的伤口
只要没有在那一刻跳楼自杀
任何伤口都会有复原的一天
至于疤痕就等于你跟我脸上的皱纹
有谁能够躲得过...”
《心战》



尝试做很多事情来麻醉自己,
却还是逃不过冬天深夜的寂寞。


Sunday, June 10, 2012

8 度

已经几个星期没有阳光了,
分不清白天昼夜的日子,
让生活变得更颓废。

偏偏这个时候,
又是大考。

心里还是会忍不住骂了一句,
“妈的!”

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2012年
就这样过了一半。

这一刻,我想回家。
而我知道,回家后,
我会很想念这里。

戏剧化的生活,
确实会过得比较精彩,
前提是,结局一定要是好的,

你想要怎样改变自己的生活,
那就要看你如何去写下,
属于你自己的剧本。

目前,
在冬天结束前,
稿子上只有四个字,

“继续颓废....”

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放弃,
是因为懒得再管了,
再多的解释,
也只是多余。

顿时,词穷了。

在想着如何反应的时候,
那一头,却断线了。

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Looking at the 'call ended' on the screen,
Only then I realized, this wasn't part of the script.

I tried calling over and over again,
but you just didn't pick up.

I guess if you did,
It would be just silence on both sides anyway.






















It's even harder to picture
that you are not here next to me.
- Payphone - Maroon 5 -



Friday, May 25, 2012

The end of week 12

难得可以早点入眠,
却被无情的温度冻醒,
冬眠并没有想象的简单。

没有精神上的寄托,
是自由,还是可悲。

寂寞,
从来不会在深夜妥协。

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Week 12, 
the end of a season.


Saturday, May 19, 2012

天使的施舍

曾经有位朋友说过,

A blog is a place where I can express myself
without considering how people look at me, 
judge me or pity me. 

It is a place where I can be myself.

于是,我失踪了。

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在这繁忙的城市,
天亮,人潮拥挤,
天暗,还有醉汉。

而街上卖艺的生活,还是一条坎坷的路。
中学毕业后,就开始一个人的生活。

不断的流浪各地,
偶尔会受伤,偶尔也会觉得空虚,
结果养成了很多事情已经不足以挂齿的态度。

有些人会停下来观赏,
有些人匆匆忙忙来过, 匆匆忙忙走了,
幸运的话,还会有不错的打赏,
晚餐,就有了着落。

但这种好景,并不常有。
虽然说卖艺的人,身边会有一个忠实粉丝,
小狗,它是人类最好的同伴,
也是最忠实的观众,
但不忍心看着它挨饿。
所以身边,除了卖艺的器材,
还是一个人。

每个人的孤独,还是有原因的。
时间久了,学会体谅人的喜怒哀乐,
但是,还是会被有些人当成是理所当然。

久了,连自己都会忘了,
好脾气不代表可以任由他人践踏。

而我又有什么资格去评价呢?

想着想着,
又是一个天亮了。

今天的晚餐,
会是能够填饱肚子的面包,
还是只有暂时满足人类基本需求的水和空气呢?

背起充满污迹和岁月痕迹的背包,
往人潮最多的方向走去。

对了,我并不是一个小丑,
我只是一个卖艺的人。

这是我内心的对白。

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Charlie Sheen: Alcohol is a poison.
Nephew: But why do you drink so much?
Charlie Sheen: Because there are something in me I need to kill.

As we grow, there are more and more things inside us that we need to kill.
That's why we drink.

It's not we want to, it's we need to.



Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Shit happens

I'm hereby to remind myself that in life,
shit always happens.

When is the last time you are happy with yourself.
I see people complaining about their lives,
their studies, their works and even parents.

When I was young,
Caught a Pikachu can make me happy for a month.

No wonder clubbing becomes a routine for some people,
No wonder singers who sing about emoness get famous.

Some people say,
Happiness is a state when u r satisfied with what you have.
Some people claim,
That is laziness.

Well, that's your job to find out where is the balance isn't it?

-------------------------------------------------























There's something wrong with my blackberry the other day,
The screen had no display when I slide it up and the speaker wasn't working.
I was thinking of changing a new phone but somehow I look up for
the warranty period at Vodafone website.
Surprisingly, the warranty is actually 24 months.

So, I went to one of the outlet and ask them to fix it for me,
and of course, no charge.

The guy told me that I need to wait for about 5-10 working days.
To my surprise, I got a msg on Mon to ask me to pick it up.(I went on Fri)

AND THEY GAVE ME A NEW BLACKBERRY,
but it is the same model tho.

No sure if I'm supposed to be happy
Or sad because I need to customize it again.

Considering I'm a rough user and even if they fix my old bb,
they will still wipe off everything in it
So I guess I'm lucky enough to exercise the warranty around 8months
before it ends.

Trust me, I drop it like it's a yoyo, except it never roll back to me.
Or maybe if I drop it hard enough,
I can get another new bb within the next 8months?

Well, shit does happen,
I'm not gonna risk it.


Another chance to treat her better.
I will, I promise. =)


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The creative adult is
the child who survived.

我们都是被程序化的一代,
距离社会认定为成功人士的标准越近,
实现自己的梦想就更遥远了。


如果这不是你想要的生活,

那从明天开始,
出海当海贼吧!

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Zombie

30/4
我开始对破晓觉得恐惧,
是我厌倦了在同一个强烈阳光底下生存
但体内流着冷酷的血的人潮,
还是深夜比较适合只想和平不想争吵
但永远被遗弃的那一群?

1/5
朋友问,你眼睛怎么了?
一开始自己会觉得惊讶,
但后来,我才知道为什么。
为什么会问?

因为眼睛,除了眼瞳之外,
其他地方都是红的。

我一定要早点入眠。

2/5
原来不是那么简单,
身体已经适应没有阳光的生活。
不需要担心,有很多夜猫也是这样。

真的不需要担心吗?

常常开玩笑说眼睛好像要掉出来了,
很希望这永远是个玩笑。

3/5
没关系,再好好休息就没事了

闭上眼睛变成是件很困难的事,
不是形容难入睡,是眼球好像变大了。
好像要爆了。

4/5
终于做完最后一份,
但是我已经份不清什么是白天昼夜。


冬天,来了。


Sunday, April 22, 2012

Worst Mistake


Lucky that I'm a free man now.
Maybe I should just ignore things that mean nothing to me anymore.
Like you said, I should stand up for myself.
Being kind can never stop rumors.
Some people just want to see the whole world burn.
And some just want to destroy the things they can't get.

I hate being accused.
Feel even more hopeless when people actually believe the accusation.

Why? Why this?
Just to find a way to please yourself?

There's a difference between lying and not telling.
There's a difference between before and after.
There's a difference between willing and not worth it.
There's a difference between fact and rumors.

Get your fact straight.
It might seem nothing to you.
But that is just ethically wrong.

At this point,
Please leave.

Please.



Wednesday, April 18, 2012

17/4

到最后,你还是一句话也没说。
观察这你的一举一动,你的表情,
尽量做出最有建设性的分析,
而你的转变,并不是一般人能了解的。

于是我急了。

为什么会出现这样的结论?
我算错了吗?
所有的数据都齐了,
到底还少了什么?

后来我才发现,
感情,算不来。

-------------------

妈,生日快乐。

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Pandora


而你的缺席,
提醒了我什么叫寂寞。


Tuesday, April 3, 2012

定罪

You walk in beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies,
And all that's best of dark and bright,
Meet in your aspect and your eyes.
Thus mellowed to that tender light,
Which heaven to gaudy day denies.

One shade the more, One ray the less,
Had half impaired the nameless grace
That waves in every raven tress.
Or softly lightens on your face.

-Lord Byron-
-White Collar-

---------------------------------------

Obviously, you can't make everyone happy,
You can't make everyone sad either.

Here's a song for everyone that I used to know.


I hate the feeling that we're drifting away from each other
And I can't do anything about it.

=(

--------------------------------------------------------

-pc-

手指在黑键与白键之间,
熟悉地舞动着,旋律带我们回到了从前。

有谁不愿意永无条件被爱,
又有谁会宁愿施舍一点爱,

人生如梦,白云苍狗,
错错对对,恩恩怨怨,
终不过日月无声,
水过无痕。


谁,讨爱。

Sunday, April 1, 2012

三个月

就算说了,
解决不了,
说了有什么用?

那就请继续若无其事。

如果不说,
一脸憔悴,
又沉默寡言。

那我有权利知道。

我不是要关心或同情,
我只是必须知道我被那么对待的原因。





愚人节快乐。
=)

------------------------------------


时差从三个小时,
变成两个小时。

Daylight Saving Time ended.


Thursday, March 29, 2012

Volcano

手上还握着
被退回的温柔。

我看天空,
视线变得模糊。

上一次,那一次。

你最后一次快乐,
那是哪一次?

--------------------------

刮起了狂风,我无动于衷,
下起了暴雨,我置身于外,
煽起了大浪,我不放心上,

直到火山爆发的那一刻,
我才发现,

有些事情,
错过了,就是错过了,

而遗憾是一种美,
只是一个借口。

遍地碎片,
再也拼不回,
潇洒的是谁?

-----------------------

你说,不相信,
因为曾经被出卖,
但却更渴望被疗伤。

While someone breaks your heart,
Another someone is waiting to fix it.

For you I'll try,
Pick up all these pieces till I'm bleeding
If I could make it right.



-Bruno Mars -
- It will rain -

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Presentation in 3 hours.
=)

Sunday, March 25, 2012

2.22am

而后来,我败给了习惯。


雨天,很冷。


不平衡
我开始觉得是不是自己有点不平衡。
幼稚久了,好像会忘了认真是什么一回事。

何必把自己弄得平易近人,
有时候保持着一段距离,
还是有它的好处。

我想让大家都开心,
那不简单。

所以,
是不是时候改变了?

-----------------

认真
上一次认真,
维持了多久?

笑声不是我的精神支柱,
我又何必去博取你的喜悦。

我想做自己,
但是人最终离不开群体
那么,这份冲突,
怎样解决?

--------------------------

言语
不管是什么,
从口中说出都显得有点浮夸。

尊重和戏言,
没办法平起平坐,
你知道的。

选择性的反应,
还算不算自然?

谈吐的分量,
如何衡量?

---------------------------

习惯

似脆弱而非脆弱
似坚强而不坚强

而我终究,
还是败给了习惯。

不习惯,
没有你影子。


Friday, March 23, 2012

Free Juice

而我,
偶尔也会不开心。


Boss.


Thursday, March 22, 2012

Mr. Bay

如果说,
新事物必定取代旧事物,
那人呢?


不管你按了多少次,
我走到了,我还是要按一次。

结果回国时,
我变得不是很敢过马路。

=/

安全感是一个很奇怪的东西,
就算是因过马路而被撞到的机率很少,
但是不等待行人灯转绿,
我还是没有安全感。

但其实也不是很需要安全感啦,
何必把一些事情看得那么重。

My tutor said,
Sometimes, you can't take things too seriously,
the reason behind is that you must learn how to respect others.

I always know that you would listen to my explanations,
How can I even forget about that.

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Moving on is simple,
it is what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.

If I were to be replaced one day,
I would appreciate what I have now.

Every second spent with you is a second
I wouldn't want to trade for anything in this world.

Would I become like him one day?
Who knows.

I mean as rich as him.

HOHOHO.



Tuesday, March 20, 2012

AM 70



拍了几张,放进电脑,
原本还以为如果不满意,可以再拍过,
结果拿起相机时,就只剩下城市的灯光,
没有了夕阳。

可是其实无尽的灯光,
照亮着这一个寂寞的城市,
也不见得不好。

知足是一个很有争议性的词。
它,可以是懒惰的借口,
它,也可以是不贪心的理由。

-------------------------------

他是个简单,还是复杂的人?
关于这个问题,我没有办法回答。


黑白与七彩的对立,

雨滴般的简单,
彩虹般的复杂。

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

S__K

There are plenty of assholes in the world.
So, pick a right time to be an asshole.
Why do you care for things that make you sad?

Just follow your heart,
Enough of entertaining others.
Be yourself,
Do the right thing that makes you happy.

Be good to those who are important to you.
That's how you should live your life.

=)

Like a boss.

--------------------------


I'm starting to like Melbourne city.
From the place I'm staying now,
I can see half of the city from 19 floors.

--------------------------

后来才发现,
或许每个人都有寂寞的一面,
就算表现得再逞强,
内心还是有脆弱的时候。

比起同情,
我更需要一个知己。

好孩子,坏孩子,
你又用着什么样的衡量标准。
当自己自我感觉良好,
比别人高高再上的时候,
请别忘了,待人,
还是要有基本的礼貌。

或许,
社会的标准就是这样,
太善于言辨,
反而变得有点低贱。

不说话,是不是比较有内涵?

--------------------------------





This is just........








Problem? =P

Sucker.


Sunday, March 11, 2012

S2

不能再等了,
再等会少一块肉。

少一块肉不是好咯。

噢!你现在是讲我肥啦?

GG-ed.

=(

--------------------------------



这里,
再美也好,
少了你在身边,
....
...
..

真的好像少了一块肉。

=P

Monday, March 5, 2012

Steamboat



No matter how many things I fill in this heart,
You will still be here.


Friday, March 2, 2012

Lots of Loves

Would there be a big difference if everyone
takes Laugh out Loud as Lots of Loves?

Have you ever been in love?
Horrible isn't it?
It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and
It means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.

You build up all these defenses,
You build up a whole suit of armor,
So that nothing can hurt you.
Then one stupid person,
Wanders into your stupid life.

You give them a piece of you.
They didn't ask for it.
They did something dumb one day,
Like kiss you or smile at you,
and then your life isn't your own anymore.

Love takes hostages.
It gets inside you.
It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness,
So simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends'
Turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.

It hurts.

Not just in the imagination.
Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt.
A real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

I hate love.
But I love you.

- Neil Gaiman

--------------------------------


想你的心脏无法那么逞强,
伪装着自己不痛不痒。


Lots of Loves.
You, Me and Us.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Goku

A year from now,
We will all be gone,
All our friends will move away,
And they are going to better places
But our friends will be gone away
Nothing is as it has been
And I miss your face like hell
And I guess it's just as well
But I miss your face like hell

Been talking about the way things change
And my family lives in a different state
And if you don't know what to make of this
Then we will not relate.



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Kuala Lumpur (KUL)
Kuala Lumpur (LCC Terminal)
Sat 25 Feb 2012, 2230 hrs ( 10:30PM)

Melbourne (MEL)
Melbourne Airport
Sun 26 Feb 2012, 0920 hrs ( 9:20AM)

Thursday, February 2, 2012

7485230

Listen, smile, agree.
And then do whatever the fuck you were gonna do anyway.

Robert Downey Jr.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Break-even

Different Culture
Same Respect.

Sometimes in life,
You got blamed when it's not even your fault,
But you just have to deal with it.

When the whole world fails you,
You still have people standing by your side.
I'm one of them.


At least that's how I tell myself.

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就算再潇洒,
我也不愿牺牲身边的人,
所以就让我来承担好了。

Because people like me,
Are way too strong to shed a tear.

这是我选择的路,
没有得回头。

--------------------------------

I promise things will be fine one day.
I promise.

Do you trust me?

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Pink Slippers

Babies were born, People got married,
People got divorced, People died,
People were hired, fired, quit,
Homes were bought,
Expensive cars were leased,
Tears were shed,
Harsh words were spoken,
Fear, Dread, Resentment, Jealousy,
Frustration and Rage,
Come and went like clouds in the sky.

The only constant was laughter.
We laughed a lot. I laughed a lot.
I hope you did too.

That's why I'm important.

(TBBT, 2012)

-------------------------------------

Things are really different now,
I always imagine that this day will come,
But I would never expect it will come this fast.

So at the end of the day,
Being single is awesome or suck?
Who knows.

-----------------------------------

大家进入了生活另一个阶段,
开始有了自己的新圈子。
却依然肆无忌惮的开着玩笑,

一个接一个离开,
可是大家都在为了梦想努力,
这样的青春,其实还是很热血吧?

只是有时候想想,
人生是不是有一个quota?
努力地挥霍,不停地浪费,
真正需要的时候,
却发现,

或许,
自己早就把自己的quota用完了。
一点都不剩,
只能等待被施舍。

一直都在假装不屑,
另一头却在质疑自己的人格,
热血一点吧,青春就是要这样。
这是成长。

P.S
今天差一点又要下AutoCity了,幸好有人不敢,
不然又要像上次这样,没有人想低头,结果....

大家向青春跨出了另一大步!

-------------------------

It's never felt so real,
No, it's never felt so right,
I miss you already.


Thursday, January 19, 2012

Absence

Sometimes with women, you want to listen to what upsets them
And then show them that you can grow and change.

Leonard, 2012

-----------------------------

What a lonely night.
Time to hit the sack.

Good night.



You're amazing,
Just the way you are.


Tuesday, January 17, 2012

The Dark Knight

Too much Holidaysss will turn you into a potato.
I don't know what am I supposed to do to spend my time.

At some point,
I even forgot that I'm still studying.
I couldn't even recall that I still have 2 Semesters left
To finish my degree.

This is getting worse man...

So I have decided to watch epic/awesome/mind-fucking movies
Whenever I have trouble sleeping at night.

---------------------------------------------

Well, I was browsing though my hard disk
And I talked to myself,
Hey, why don't I watch 'The Dark Knight.'

Why?
Because from what I can remember,
The last time I watched it was in 2008.

A bit of background info,
Back in 2008, DVD isn't that common yet,
So we need to buy VCD and most of the time we have part A and B.
And the version in my hard disk is he VCD version.

So, here's the question,
Why I can possibly remember which year I watch it?

It was the year when I took my SPM.
It was one day before BM paper 1 & 2.
I try to restrain myself from watching part B after A,
BUT, it was too good till I couldn't even stop my mouse from clicking it.

Too good and to emphasize it,
The guilt of not studying last until today.
I might have gotten full As. LOL!

HOHOHO.

Anyway, I still got A1 for BM.


There's nothing to be proud of tho,
Who needs BM nowadays?
I'm just saying. =D

----------------------------------------------------

These are some epic quotes:


Joker: I believe whatever doesn't kill you,
simply makes you.... stranger.

Alfred: Some men aren't looking for anything logical, like money.
They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with.
Some men just want to watch the world burn.

Joker: Do I really look like a guy with a plan? You know what I am?
I'm a dog chasing cars. I wouldn't know what to o with one if I caught it.
You know, I just..... 'do' things.

I miss this guy. =/

Heath Andrew Ledger (4 April 1979 - 22 Jan 2008)
was an Australian television and film actor.

------------------------------------------

Because he's the hero Gotham deserves, but not the one it needs right now.
So we'll hunt him because he can take it.

Because he's not our hero. He's a silent guardian, a watchful protector.
A dark knight.

到最后才发现,
至少还有人认为,
我还是个好孩子。

是否有意在隐瞒一些事情?
是否真的如此敏感?

因为有时候,
我连自己都看不清自己到底是什么东西。

这种性格有时候会惹来很多麻烦?
或许吧。


"I guess I will only be your clown."

Sunday, January 15, 2012

台湾大选


结果,眼泪忍到最后,也没有落下。

Saturday, January 14, 2012

No Updates

I guess if I had a superpower,
the power would be making people upset.

But hey, guess what,
I already have it.
So cool.

Come to think about it,
What is the point of having the skill that will hurt others?

---------------------------------------

Fail to explain myself.
Such a loser.

Damnit.




The background music of my night.
<3


Friday, January 13, 2012

Paul's

I'm like a pigeon.

People pass me in the street.
They see me but they try to ignore me.
They prefer I wasn't in their city.

Everyone fights for position.
Everyone wants to be seen and heard.

I wasn't always like this.
I had a job. I had a home.
I had a family.

But the woman I loved fell out of love with me.
That broke my heart.

When the chance to be loved came along again,
I ran away from it.

I even stopped trusting people.
I was afraid of getting my heart broken again.
So I start to hide every truth about myself.

I'm just afraid if I do trust someone,
I'll get my heart broken.

Charles Chaplin once said,
'I always like walking in the rain,
so no one can see me crying.'

Sometimes you can trust a person
And then, when things are down,
They forget about you.

(Home Alone 2, 1992).

----------------------------------------------

Life is not easy, you'll have to face problems and involve in endless dramas.
You might have no directions and suggestions,
You might even have to make some wrong decisions.
And live with it. =/

------------------------------------------------

No offense,
But that seems like sort of a dumb thing to do.

Maybe they are just too busy.
Maybe they don't forget about you,
But they forget to remember you.

People don't mean to forget.
My grandpa says
'If my head wasn't screwed on,
I'd leave it on the school bus.'

I do understand.
I had a nice pair of Rollerblades.
I was afraid to wreck them,
So I kept them in a box.

Do you know what happened?
I outgrew them. I never wore them outside.
Only in my room a few times.
And I don't get to wear them now.

A person's heart and feelings are kind of the same thing.
If you won't use your heart, who cares if it gets broken?

If you just keep it to yourself, maybe it'll be like my Rollerblades.
When you do decide to try it, it won't be any good.

You should take a chance. Got nothing to lose.
Your heart might still be broken, but it isn't gone.

If it was gone, you wouldn't be this nice.

(Home Alone 2, 1992).

---------------------------------------------------

Would you put me on your reserve list?

When I look back on my life, I'm sure that
I'll regret the things I didn't do
More than the ones I did.

I guess you will never believe in forever anymore,
Nobody lives forever anyway.

Maybe there's another life.
But in this life,

Would you stay?
Or
Would you be the one that got away?


Thursday, January 12, 2012

21 - 95


I was on my way back after dropping my sis.
And so happened that this song was playing on the radio.

It wasn't really worth mentioning if it was sung by Katy Perry.
Because let's face it, everyone likes it and it has been a while now.

Somehow the version I listened to was a cover by a Guy.
I tried searching for Sam Tsui or Jason Chen on youtube,
but they sounded a bit rushy and 'commercialized'.

Anyway, I couldn't find it but
I found this one, which is even better.

Here's the reason why.

This guy's version,
is sung from a guy's perspective.
they change a sentence of the lyric to

'In another life,
YOU WOULD BE MY GIRL'

Sweat?
Arghh, I also have no idea why
But I actually like it
Because of that changed lyric.

PROBLEM?

---------------------------------------

Maybe I'm just a little bit sensitive.
People tend to exaggerate their emotions when they have
Nothing more important to do.

I want to be myself but I want to fit in at the same time.
Is that even possible?

12 days.
11 months to my birthday.


Wednesday, January 11, 2012

小孩子


Some people were meant to fall in love with each other....
......But not meant to be together.

Sometimes it's better to sail alone,
in the sea of time.

------------------------------


When I look up to the sky,
I realize that it's time to pick up all the broken pieces of the real me.
I couldn't even recognize myself.

Did I change?
For the better or worse?

It has been a while now,
And I ask myself,
How long do you want to be like this?
I couldn't answer.

-----------------------------------


'Sometimes, it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.'

You told me that you loved this song.
I wasn't paying attention.

But now it becomes the song that would always play in my mind.



I'll give you your dream,
Because you mean the world.

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人生,
还是要有目标,
才有一个活下去的理由。



Monday, January 9, 2012

MC.

原来假期太长,
除了颓废,还是颓废。

我想成为一个很厉害的人,
但是我恨懒惰。

可不可以教我,
怎样用最少的努力,
换来最好的成绩?

原来毕业后,
还要读很多书,

原来想要变强,
两年并不够。

而且我看了很像小孩子,
为什么?
为什么一定要check我的IC!!!!

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But anyway,

We don't stop playing because we grow old,
We grow old because we stop playing.

-George Bernard Shaw-

In fact, we never grow up,
We just merely learn how to act in public.
Guess what, I don't like to act,
I like to be childish.

So screw all those people who think I should be acting
Throughout my whole life.


Here's a picture of the dick, IN YOUR FACE.


A big dick on the beach, your argument is invalid.
(Sorry if u find it disturbing, this is just me.)

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Stop telling me how to act on the stage,
It's not even your stage.

You don't get to choose when is the judgement day,
And when the story ends.

Just because you are good at getting attention and sympathy,
Doesn't mean that you are right.

Ok, that doesn't make me right either,
But I choose to respect everyone.

Sometimes, it makes me wonder,
Why I don't earn back the respect I deserve?

2010 was a bad year,
2011 was a bad year either,
Can I make 2012 at least the best out of the worst?

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Dear Adults,
You might think we haven't gone through the worst part of our lives,
But frankly, how many of you actually care to ask or at least try to understand?
I know all our worries might not even enough to compare with your daily problems,
We just need some respects.


(unrelated pic. =D)

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I'm sorry for bringing all the troubles,
But what is life without some spices, right?
You should be grateful at least because of me,
you have something to talk about.

We tend to avoid being in a drama,
We choose to gossip and watch it from outside all the time,
But what goes around, comes around.

I'm waiting for the day,
Where I can sit on the couch and laugh my ass off.

Guess what, I'll still respect you as a professional actor.
Well, that's just me. No hard feelings.
*fist bump*

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I was looking at the sky this afternoon,
getting darker and darker.

I know there'll be a downpour shortly.
Then I think of you.

'I'll never be everyone's favorite,
Some of them can't even look me in the eye.

I'll pick up these broken pieces till I'm bleeding
If that would make it right.

Because there'll be no sunlight if you walk out of my life.
Just like how it rains today.'

-It will rain-

And so the rain stops,
I remains awake till now.

Good night.

PHK.


Thursday, January 5, 2012

Princess J

好久没让自己的思想,
沉淀下来,
就连自己都不清楚,
自己到底是怎样的一个人。

"你以前并不是这样,
到底是发生了什么?"
说不上曾经让大家尊重,
但至少还不会冷落到
像过街的老鼠一样。

后来发现,我不喜欢出门,
我不知道如何面对那些
曾经见过面,曾经交谈过的人。
我不知道我是否应该停下来哈拉几句,
还是假装不认识以免大家都尴尬。

我是属于适合高谈阔论的那一位,
还是保持沉默的那一个?

我连我自己是什么,
我也不知道。

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你们又何必提醒我
人是有脆弱的时候?

荣耀的背后刻着一道孤独,
我背后是空的,没有秘密。

我并不是一个复杂的人,
每个人都有自己的问题,
我又何必把自己的问题无限量放大。

大家又何必把事情看得那么严重。
我是否人格分裂了。

或许只是缺乏太多的爱,
然后拼命说人不需要爱。

这样,很容易被同情,
我才不稀罕。

热血才是王道。

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08242,

I have trouble expressing myself,
I think of the consequences and how it would
affect you, me and the people around us.
Maybe that's why you think I'm covering up.

But in fact, I'm not.
And you don't even have to guess.

When comparison comes in,
I'm sure that my name will come first on
the elimination list.

I guess it takes a lot of courage to tell me about it,
And I really do understand.

I promise to make things better,
Alright?

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

重温

如果对不起可以解决问题的话,
那说一次就够了。
如果道歉了还是解决不了问题,
那说一万次都是于事无补。
Move On (Jan)

我才没有想家,
一个人在外国比在家更好。
=/
9am (Feb)

有时候,
深夜的时候,
路就是这样黑暗。
并不见得每次都那么顺畅。
阴 (March)

Life is so uncertain.
Who knws what is gonna happen tomorrow.
Depressed (April)

在生命的某一个阶段,
我们都一样。
Durbin-Watson (May)

也许
在另外一个平行时空里
我们是在一起的。
也许 (June)

A: 你相信永远吗?
B: 对我而言,三个月就已经是永远。
Last Kiss (July)

A: I always thought our story
would be a happy ending.
B: If you want a happy ending,
it depends on where you stop the story.
Orson Welles
CP9 (August)

越猖狂的人,内心越寂寞。
没有不快乐,莫名的失落。
失落 (September)

催泪弹,
是不是真的能让人流泪?
Should I? (October)

___________
___________
(November)

Here's a hug to those who are sick of
misunderstandings and tired of explaining.
Hatred (December)


Second Dolphin

家,
总是那么温暖,

庆幸,
2011的最后一天,
有你。